...I...I do not want to believe it...just the possibility of such is unbearable.

[The thought of after all of that, Choromatsu...somehow making good on that declaration...

He chokes back a sob, using his other hand to wipe tears futility from his cheeks.]

E-even...if he were, I should be able to find him...I think. I do not really...I have never had this problem before. But I just...cannot fathom any other way he could have just vanished...